Today I went to Bloch and bought a few tops and some canvas ballet shoes (Bloch Pro Elastic). They feel pretty different to leather ones. And the elastics are pre-sewn. Yay!
My anxiety hit the roof when I walked into the store. Sassy dancer shop assistants evvverywhere. One girl asked if I needed any help. I said yes, I was after some canvas ballet shoes but I’ll just have a browse around first.
I was absolutely breaking a sweat.
Locate the tops. Rip them off the racks. Sprint to the dressing room.
Okay, that’s a bit dramatic. I was very casual and calm but I was 100% wishing I could just throw money at them and evaporate with my items.
Why do I get so anxious about dance stores!!! Stop it!!!!!!
Anyway. The tops fitted and I tried on the shoes which also fitted (she asked for my shoe size and I totally nailed it because I thought to check the bottom of my leather ones on the way out of my house.)
As I was trying them on she made general dance-y small talk.
I explained, “I’m not a dancer, I just do it for fun really…”
And I’ve been thinking about that. And I’m not sure if it’s true or not. At what stage can you call yourself a dancer? Like I know I’m not dancing at the moment but I have before and I’ll be starting again in a few weeks. I feel like being A Dancer is something that you keep being even if you stop dancing but it’s something that you love?? But do you have to have been dancing for years before you can stop and keep the title??? Am I overthinking this????
Goal: Not to feel like a complete fraud when I tell people that I’m a dancer.