Pointe?!

My teacher has given me the green light. I’ve booked a pointe shoe fitting for tomorrow afternoon. Who knew I would ever get to this stage? Not me, that’s for sure.

I feel nervous but so SO EXCITED. The lady I spoke to on the phone when I booked asked which dance school I go to, and it turns out she goes to the same place! Hopefully she does my fitting tomorrow.

It doesn’t feel real. I know it’s going to be hard work and everyone sucks at first, so I’m trying not to get too excited… But it’s hard not to.

I’ll make sure to do a blog post about the pointe shoe fitting experience.

theraband exercise underneath desk at work intensifies

On another note, the class I was worried about in my previous post was completely fine. I worried for nothing as per usual. The only thing I noticed was a slight decline in flexibility, most noticeable during grande battements. My releve has gotten better. And for goodness sake, I hate humidity because it makes the floor so sticky in this one room that it’s like pirouette-ing on sticky tape. Then I went to another class on Wednesday in the other studio and the floor was slippery as hell which made it tricky to land the pirouettes. The things I would do for a regular floor in an air-conditioned studio…

Regress

So it’s been almost three weeks since I last danced. Honestly, I kind of thought I would practice at home more but that’s not how it’s turned out. I took a dance holiday. I feel sloth-like. My whole body feels uncomfortably achey and stiff. I hate it. Whining fuels me.

On the bright side, I think my knee really needed the break. It’s been injured for a while and because I’m Really Very Stupid, I’ve been dancing on it. It feels a lot less hurty and more stable now.

My first class of 2016 is a level 2 class tomorrow night. I’m actually really nervous. Surprisingly nervous. The thing is, I know I’ve regressed because I haven’t danced and I’ve only lightly stretched since mid December. And that is making me anxious.

I wonder if the other people in my class have been in sloth-mode like me.

I’m probably making a mountain out of a mole hill, I just can’t stand the idea of being surprisingly bad in class tomorrow. Only one way to find out, folks. I’ll keep you updated.

R E L E A S E

I don’t know if I should mention specifically what my job is, but it involves looking at criminal records. And today I had a bad one. Like, really bad. Like, the type that makes you turn into a puddle of ‘what/why/how/WHAT the fuck‘.

And I really need to just like

breathe

and

release.

So I’m going to stretch the tension out of my muscles and have some tea and watch youtube videos and forget all about sad awful work things, yes? Yes.

🙂

Everything is hard before it is easy.

– Goethe

Bit of a stretch

I’ve been stretching a lot lately and I’ve already noticed a difference. For about the last fortnight I’ve been pushing myself more than I usually do. Usually I just lazily stretch out of habit while watching tv or something.

When I started I couldn’t touch the ground in that stretch where you just stand and bend over and try to touch the floor with straight legs. Now I can get all my fingers (not palm yet) flat on the floor, if you know what I mean.

I also couldn’t touch my toes on the floor, and now I can wrap my hands around my feet and rest my head on my knee (only on my left leg though)

Progress is exciting.

I also bought a theraband to strengthen my feet/ankles. I think. I’m pretty sure that’s what they do when you use them right. I’ve only used it once so far but it worked well!

Also I’m reading Gone Girl at the moment and OH MY GOD you have to read it ASAP if you haven’t. Wait till about 1/4 of the way in and you’ll be hooked. It’s written in a beautifully addictive fashion.